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it's all a game!
got a new perception about life today. it's all a game! oh i love this theory... what's the point of worrying about things or overthinking all the time. it doesn't matter! it's all just playing, and that's what makes it fun! the weather has cleared up, so let's look forward to the new week!
Published Date: Sun, 16 Oct 2005 17:02:39 GMT
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只有感激
不知道为什么就只能想到这个题目。有没有时候你也会像我一样突然在现在的朋友中发现老朋友的影子？很奇怪的，一起打球的队长，怎么看怎么像monkle... 同屋的室友，怎么聊怎么像RC~ 让我觉得，其实老朋友无处不在。我是幸福的，有什么资格抱怨？能做的，只有感激。
室友说，有些人有commitment problem，抱着现在还想着过去，始终无法投入眼前的生活，这种人是heartless。我说，真希望和这样的人换心，因为我有too much heart，对虚幻的现实，无从规划的将来就可以弥足深陷，有什么用呢？从来就没有什么人有责任为我做什么。任何的点滴，我都记在心里，能做的，只有感激。
Published Date: Sat, 15 Oct 2005 02:36:24 GMT
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when do i get to see the mr. sun again?
alrite, i think i'm having this extreme depression due to separation with mr. sun for too long. i miss u so much! when are you coming out again? it's been so gray and damp and cold... without you, i just wanna hug my mr. bed all day long...
lots of good movies are coming on... emmm, which one should i watch? w&g is reallyyyyyyy cute, elizabeth town seems vely sweeeeeeet, zorro and his girl are sooooooooo hot, plus hp comes in flying! um... or maybe i should worry about my midterms and stuff more? i don't know~ i think i'm through the period of the term when i get everything done on the night it's assigned, never be late or fall asleep in classes, always working on things and never feel tired...
even a burning torch has its time to go out, not to mention a person without sunshine~
news everyday... entertainment first, then horoscope... that is my day...
whatever... it's just funny~
诗歌看透你对困难的态度
分析结果
ABC
与积极正好相反，你是个非常消极的人。不管对任何事物，你都是采取被动的方式，所以不可能事先策划某些事情。因此，别人常对你持有好感，并认为你是一个谦虚的人。可是，在紧要关头，你若不能主动积极，就无法抓住好的时机。不管是多么细小的事物，找一个新的机会，主动去尝试看看吧！
http://astro.sina.com.cn/ot/2005-10-13/180523304.shtml
你是空中的梦想家吗
B、懂得区分梦想和现实
你也是比较爱幻想的人，但你很清楚那些是不可能实现的梦想。你很会把握现实，因此不会一直沉湎于梦想。这一类型的人中，最终抛弃梦想选择现实的人比较多。
你和很多普通人一样，会对明星或偶像有好感。但你不会真的去向对方告白。大多数情况下，你只会和朋友一起叽里呱啦地讨论讨论，从暗处偷看一下罢了。一般来说，这类型的人和追求自己的人交往会比自己主动追求的情况多。
http://astro.sina.com.cn/ot/2005-10-13/171423302.shtml
Published Date: Fri, 14 Oct 2005 04:07:04 GMT
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无聊消遣，没话找话
奇怪，
为什么是我？为什么总是我？
有时会觉得辛苦
有时又觉得满足
已经学会不苛求太多
因为曾经跌得太重
因为人在从前里成长
只是在心中默念
在忙碌中麻痹
数着分分秒秒
让自己平静
就连做功课也成了乐趣
简直闻所未闻
每天扮cool
是否真的不在乎？
如果不在乎
为什么我会迷惑？
我一定又成了
别人旅途中的风景
每天在进行
脚步却从来不会为我而停
从不奢望什么
因为没有什么是理所当然
执迷不悔
还是悬崖勒马
全在一念之间......
Published Date: Sat, 08 Oct 2005 03:22:26 GMT
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3/5, 7/7?
I just got myself into this crazy commitment of volleyball practice/game for 3 days out of 5 per week. I don't know if it's worth it or if I'll lose valuable time to study. I only know that I played bad today and I try to make it up, and I get to play in good teams. It's a decision changed/made in a split of second, as I've always said I hated intramural or any competition. I never perform well under stress. What's the deal? I don't understand. I have this feeling I'm seeing someone way too much there's the loss of freshness in the friendship. But I don't know how to help it. I guess if it's meant to be, we can't really change it too much, no matter how hard we try. Meant to be, I use that to explain everything. Sooner or later, the same thing would happen.
Planning on going hiking. Found this site, and got suggestion from ppl: http://www321.pair.com/oaries/localattitude/wachusett.htm If you are intersted let me know?
messed up and didn't do anything tonite...
Published Date: Tue, 04 Oct 2005 04:31:37 GMT
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超健康
最近变得越来越健康。晚12点到1点睡觉，早7点到8点起床。今天早上愣是8点起床，9点去打羽毛球，打到11点，冲凉，吃午饭，学习到7点回家，自己做饭。简直健康到不行了。生活方式有质的改变，效率也有所提高。感觉不错，应该会继续。感谢我的动力。希望对新城市的新鲜感永远不会过去。
今日名言：
生命之所以有意义，是因为感觉自己被需要......
Published Date: Mon, 03 Oct 2005 02:06:15 GMT
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有没有一种东西
远观比拥有更幸福？喜欢就一定要得到吗？如果得到时候就失去了新鲜感，弃之一边，转而向往更好的，朝三暮四，还不如默默的欣赏，享受近在咫尺却远在天边的乐趣，为自己“总有一天会有的”豪言壮语而骄傲。不是吗？从前喜欢一条精巧的裙子，无奈囊中羞涩，于是发誓要努力赚钱；喜欢一间著名的学校，但成绩不够，于是每天挑灯伏案；喜欢一份万众瞩目的工作，可惜竞争力不强，于是想尽办法让自己的简历再丰满些。喜欢一个人也可以这样吗？有人说“爱情是要自己争取的”，也有人说“爱情是无法勉强的”，到底是怎样的？爱情可以好像一件东西，一间学校，或者一份工作这样去远观而不亵玩吗？只要努力付出就会收获吗？暗恋的感觉，真的强过热恋吗？得到就等于失去那份挑战吗？
Published Date: Thu, 29 Sep 2005 00:43:17 GMT
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红的还是蓝的？
最近被人猛灌red sox爱国主义精神。今天去看corpse bride的时候，正好赶上fenway的狂热劲。电影好看，球迷更好看。路边有黄牛，还有挂着牌子写着"i need tickets"的可怜人。据说门票早在开始出售3天内就卖光了，然后网上卖都在300至500的价位，着实恐怖。相比较蓝鸟在多伦多的冷清，其实当时有red sox game的时候，在skydome看就得了，那需要500块？5块就差不多了吧？随大流，我对这个现在也有了兴趣，明年应该会赶场吧？多伦多前几天赢了yankees，让red sox捡了便宜，结果现在又回来面对劲敌，看来帮人也不见得会有回报。不过他们赢了yankees好像也进不了季后赛了吧~ 不管怎么说，波士顿人民感谢蓝鸟队！呵呵~
其实最早知道red sox是因为看了the girl who loved tom gordon. 发觉这种崇拜真神了，可以让迷路的8，9岁的小孩一个人在缅因的树林风雪里硬是找到回家的路。换作是我，一定找不到北，因为心中没有这样的感情支柱。如果再教育可以让我建立起这种支柱，我愿意天天去泡fenway park，现场或电视我都守着。
Published Date: Wed, 28 Sep 2005 01:26:55 GMT
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严重安慰一下和我一样周五没有party的人
其实自己在家挺好的，安静，好读书。什么书都行。楼下的party12点才开锣，我这边11点睡觉就得了，只要睡着了就不会被吵醒。唉，其实要去rock concert，结果这不是又咳上了，所以还是乖乖呆家里，期待明天！写那个volunteer的application咯。越来越觉得，giving makes me happy... cheesy, but true~
Published Date: Sat, 24 Sep 2005 02:27:45 GMT
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都在心里
最近常常会心神不宁，大小事情不断，所有的事情都要返工重做才会有好结果，有时候挺累的，也不知道自己怎么这么不顺。连车证上的名字都被人打了typo，有没有搞错！！又要再去~ 烦！或者新来乍到都会这样？不过我还是扮到蛮cool，什么都在心里。跟人说有什么用？也没有什么能帮到我，人家也不可能替我做事。可能是我老毛病又犯，有什么想法也爱面子不愿找帮助，人家都忙啊！
不过其实没有那么严重，学校家里还是很快乐，就是政府银行的那点破事成天搞不完。也许是我太心急，什么都想搞定免除后患。其实说起来我的apartment超舒服，室友很好，家具免费捞了全套，学校同学有的口顷，教授都很棒，lab也找到，还碰到一个会让我想起来就开心，就有动力的人，这一切我应该觉得很知足了。现在最重要的，是耐心。慢慢得来，一切都理得顺。对啦，我觉得教nonlinear的教授超cool,讲话有清楚，又不会罗嗦，notes也整齐,高科技也玩得转，笑话政论都一针见血。我想如果今后我有幸做了教授，也要学他这样，寓教于乐。
迷路是乐趣吗？惊讶的发现一个人跟我一样有这样的想法。这是我知道第一个这样想的人。还有，最近的气氛，就是很融洽，读起书来也有劲，因为知道如果有不会的题就可以问人，人家都很不计较的解释给我。这和以前的感觉不太一样，让我对自己也多一点信心。感谢大家。
终于有机会重新碰到排球，感谢老天，我居然找到一个，然后是一队，跟我一样狂热，而且技术又好又不骄傲的朋友。我想今后应该会每周都去打吧？
订票了。终于要回家。下决心的原因，是实在很想念。这次回去有伴，真的很开心。结果就是现在有什么social活动都要考虑三分，因为最好还是学数学读书。回家的几天一定什么都读不进去，所以不要寄期望。最好是回家之前就都搞定。数学吗，都学过了，虽然学的很烂，重新拾一拾应该还做得到。嗯，战略上要藐视敌人，战术上要重视敌人。还有就是那句，时间都是挤出来的。
学校里有免费journalism workshop+free lunch! 实在是，天下真有这么好的事！？这个周6有其他安排去不了，不过是讲news reporting，下周的interviewing应该更有趣吧？看来今后每个星期6都有事做啦~ 新城市给人的感觉，就是这样，总是有事做，永远不会闷。而且因为大家都是学生，离家很远，所以什么事只要说一声就应者云集，去玩，去读书，去吃饭，都有集体行动的可能。当然如果想要单独呆着，机会还是大把。这种距离感，不近不远，似乎刚刚好。
Published Date: Fri, 23 Sep 2005 13:47:34 GMT
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Anyone up for any of these? nah, more like a to-do list
-jazz fes in south bos on sat
-advanced screening jonny depp's "corpse bride" wednesday fenway amc
- bme picnic sat
-jazz/rock bar fri nite
-journalism workshop com 209 sat 11-2
-badminton sunday morning
-home-made sushi nite
-trip to rmv
-honda bb inspection
-567/505 study group
-700 study group: despaaarate for this one =(
-lab tours
- taekwon-do class??
Published Date: Wed, 21 Sep 2005 03:47:41 GMT
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predict the unpredictable
today's horoscope: things get really weird once you know you are not saying what your heart wants to say. try to maintain eye contact, relax and concentrate on the topics when you are talking. follow your intuition, but do expect the worst, because it is often the case. be patient with what is not working out, but make the effort to push it forward. any progress is good, and prepare for the best in the weekend.
Published Date: Thu, 15 Sep 2005 04:51:09 GMT
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没那么爱他 - it's true
你有权利情绪化
你不一定要坚强
但有些事情不能伪装
别为自己设了框
我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
深呼吸抬头望
发现天空很宽广
这世界那么大
幸福总会在某个地方
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
拥有过的计划
留给值得的对象
你知道不会是他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
歌手：范玮琪 专辑：一比一
Published Date: Thu, 25 Aug 2005 03:20:05 GMT
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Peter Jennings...
Really,
haven't ever felt this way about journalism before,
haven't ever realized how superficial it is to take all news reports for granted,
Until abc's program tonite...
Didn't really know that much about Peter Jennings before, even when I heard from 680, I was like, oh, ok, another guy died... I guess that's why he's not Brad Pitt. Watching news, I don't watch the reporter, but that's just the point. A good reporter always directs the audience to immerse in the news at making, and to focus on the implication of any event, instead of showing off their own opinion or emotion. During crisis, during war, 911, challenger, okolahoma city, in cambodia, in iraq, in bosnia, in jesusalem, well, I think it's easier to list them, than to actually be there, in the front line, meeting the people and talking about their stories, with true passion.
It is true that news cast can be biased. It is also true that we always tend to say good things about someone after he's died. But I truly believe that someone who faces the public with such professionalism, such enthuthiasm, such respect, and such charisma and wittiness, doesn't just close his eyes, imagine it all happening and then make it all up. I fully believe that Peter Jennings is just one of all the extraordinary reporters out there, who don't take producing news as their job, but as their life. It shows an attitude towards life, I always think. Being a good journalist takes a sensitive and strong mind, takes passion, curiosity, intuition, sensibility, and understanding. Being a pipe, conducting flow of information to the public is one thing; being a sponge, constantly absorbing knowledge and discovering new perspective of things is another. That's what I like about this profession. When a journalist reports on little details about life that are being ignored by the public, he observes the world through a microscope. He must understand that things don't happen without a reason. If we don't analyze life with real objectiveness, the cause will never be uncovered, being complicated or simple. When a journalist has collected all the background information, and is standing in front of the camera, reporting to the whole world from the centre of an event, the audience is the world, and the earth would hold his breath to hear what he has to say. At such moments, he must have the world in his chest, he must truly care, and he is the king without the crown.
Mourn for Peter Jennings... Reborn my passion about journalism. Too bad I can never write or talk like a local...
Published Date: Thu, 11 Aug 2005 03:31:58 GMT
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If you don't believe in God...
You will after you see this...
Published Date: Wed, 03 Aug 2005 01:07:43 GMT
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ok, so what the 'ell is wrong with British police?
what's the whole deal about shooting 8 times at an innocent civilian? what's the deal about "shooting to kill"?? now they are just like 惊弓之鸟，civilians are like that, why the 'ell are the police freaking out as well? so who's not freaking out? who's "to serve and to protect"? think about us who don't have weapons at home, going out with a school bag, we get shot; going out without a school bag, we get bombed. so when do we NOT get shot or bombed? who should we fear more, the police, the government, or the terrorists??
be scared, and the end of the world is drawing close...
Published Date: Tue, 26 Jul 2005 00:42:55 GMT
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i think it's all meant to be!
guess what, my 4th roommate is going for journalism! it's all meant to be, 1 entrepreneur, 1 journalist, and 1 classmate! i can learn how to start a business, go for journalism classes, and study together with classmate! haha, this is just perfect. i'm so excited now, and looking forward to my new life! too bad the journalist isn't a guy~ hoho, can't stop thinking about them in my shower... wamahahhaha...
Published Date: Tue, 12 Jul 2005 03:13:58 GMT
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上瘾的等待
从来都在等待，等待天亮，等待交通通畅，上学等待放学，上班等待下班，毕业等待好工作，好学校，回家等待好看的电视剧，上网等待沉默，然后就是等待明天。如果可卡因 之后的想入非非算作上瘾，那等待也能让人上瘾吧？
从来都很享受等待的感觉。从前被人称作“思想派”，那是因为什么都喜欢写在日记里，而不愿去付诸行动。痴迷于某个明星的时候，每天痴迷在电视前，等着她的出现。那时候的感觉，就好像喜欢一个糖人，喜欢第一个之后，就觉得自己再也不会喜欢第二个。没有追星的疯狂，没有什么演唱会，见面会，签名会，就这样远远的欣赏，静静的等待。就连写给她的信，都永远的压在日记里，舍不得真的寄出，生怕走的太近，会破坏了距离产生的美。十年了，一切都变了，人会老，就算有什么新戏，也只是网上一天几句话的新闻。可是，仍是等待，珍藏着这份等待，初衷不改。
常常会挂在嘴上的一句话，“现在没有，想来总会有的”。想象有一天，能和家人一起，安安稳稳，种花煮菜，哪怕像老爸向往的，买一块地，自己种自己收，自给自足。现在看来，“既然选择了远行，就选择了风雨兼程”。哈哈，等待不再漂的那一天，很上瘾。
知道等待没有结果，还是没有办法勇敢面对。是因为想要的仍不够多吧？还是害怕追得太急，反而没了最初仅有的憧憬？试过等待电话，等待msn上闪动的人头，最终换来的，是潇潇洒洒的握手，再见。头也不回的奔向车里，开在highway上，听cd咿咿呀呀的唱着...... 没有所谓模糊的街灯，恍惚的神志，只有胃里莫名的绞痛，和嘴角无奈的苦笑，在提醒着我，等待还要继续。后来，听说一种感情叫暗恋，那是一种没有风险，没有困扰的等待。等待时间慢慢冲淡一切，还是等待一件叫做表白的事情，不知道。只晓得，等待中可以随意用幻想填补点点滴滴。其实等待才是最公平，最安全，最美的。
追起来太累，不如等。至少有希望，至少有想象。对于一个“思想派”来说，这就够了。
不眠
7点10分清晨时分
慵懒的气氛
睡不着醒不了
我又失了魂
我苦坐着望着日轮
却以为是黄昏
鸟鸣莺声让我回神
才发现已经过了一生
浮浮沉沉假假真真
为谁辛苦为谁认真
为何努力为何牺牲
拼了再拼忍了又忍
还是欲望这种本能
会让人忘了有多心疼
只是不知无论如何
到了最后还不是一个人
到了最后才发现不是一个人
歌手:范玮琪 专辑:一比一
Published Date: Sun, 10 Jul 2005 04:54:03 GMT
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bomb the ell out of yourself first!
i don't care what the 'ell is going on in those terrorists' mind,
if you have to bomb someone,
bomb yourselves first,
then the presidents and PM's,
if you are still alive,
bomb the civilians and innocent ppl,
and your mom and god!
!@@#$%%&E$^*$&*(%&)(^*_)&({+_()_+*+)(&_
Published Date: Fri, 08 Jul 2005 02:03:54 GMT
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你最适合居住在哪个国家？
你最适合居住在哪个国家？
分析结果
F. 非洲。你热爱的是一种自由不受约束且粗犷的生活方式。你不愿意生活在世俗中，有时候你甚至希望自己可以生活在原始社会，至少那种生活没有压力。其实非洲很适合你这种生活方式，因为那里有你喜欢的给人粗犷感觉的沙漠，那里有别人叫不出名字的植物与动物。如果可以让你控制自己的生活，你宁愿找一个人陪你在那里度过一生。
June 26
What’s cooking
萝卜汤
猪肉，萝卜（青菜，土豆），生姜，花椒，盐，葱
洗肉，一块肉切两半，烧水，水开放肉至烧开，去沫，放姜，花椒。水再开时放入萝卜（或土豆，青菜稍晚）。肉熟出锅，菜熟放盐，葱入汤，起锅。
回锅肉
（做汤煮熟的）熟肉放凉切片，姜丝，蒜片，郫县豆瓣，蒜苗或葱，青红辣椒切块，花椒面，糖盐
冷油入肉，姜丝，放盐，翻炒至油热，将肉拨开，放入葱（白的部分），蒜片，豆瓣酱，炒至油滚，放入辣椒，炒熟后加糖，花椒面，最后加葱或蒜苗出锅。
土豆西红柿
土豆切长条，西红柿切块，葱，盐
土豆入油，炒热加盐，放西红柿，加水盖锅5分钟，入葱出锅
蒸茄子
茄子，蒜沫，姜沫，酱油，麻油
茄子切两半，蒸10分钟出锅。用蒜沫姜沫和适量酱油麻油拌汁，浇在茄子上即成。
June 23
Moving Sale is ON!
ALL ITEMS LIKE NEW AND MUST GO!
come back daily for additional items!
see pictures in Album...
DON'T MISS OUT ON THE H~O~T AND SWEET DEALS
CONTACT ME janeyqz@hotmail.com OR LEAVE MSG!
June 21
关于最近的电影
我就觉得mr. and mrs. smith很好看。可能应为以前看过tomb raider 和fight club印象都很深，很喜欢，现在看着两个人就是想要一直看一直看。报上的影评说，就是看着pitt 和jolie两个人坐在那里读电话簿，都会卖出好票房，呵呵，我觉得一点不错。其实什么情节都不重要，去看这个电影，就不会在乎那么多，不要太苛刻吧！为了满足感官冲击，这部戏绝对做到了。那如果说要讲什么人生道理，仔细想想还真是有点潜移默化，哈哈。give it 4 stars out of 5... hehe
还看了madagascar，呵呵~超可爱！最喜欢里面的那个大眼睛的小獾熊~叫什么来着？不记得了，反正就是喜欢。有这样一个玩具的话，一定会整天抱着~
June 19
天下无不散的宴席
终于毕业了。
心里的悲喜交加，全变成满脸堆笑。
只见一行人一字排开，熟练的对着对面同样数量的照相机。
快门排山倒海般不停的闪着，
这阵势，就和记者招待会差不多。
心，却被每下快门一点点挖空。
早就知道会有这么一天，
真正到了的时候，却还是不敢相信。
有些人可能很久，很久很久都不会再见了吧？
脑子里突然空落落的，几天之后才缓过劲来。
事实摆在眼前，就要学会接受，
明天，应该更值得期待吧？
散了，真的散了......
June 13
逛了一圈别人的blog
觉得大家的文笔都好好，又深奥又富有感情，
芝加哥人的幽默而唯美，Ｈ的有提到我哦，
sheevonne的透着一丝无奈，从前没有发现赤子的观察力如此入微～
比起这个被我随时随地东拉西扯上一笔的地方强多了。
看到自己的blog list越来越长，我觉得我还是有很多朋友，又发现自己还是比较怀旧的。
想起自己当初的blog，每天也写的很认真，很有感情，好像学校里的命题作文一样，字斟句酌。
因为那时，觉得自己是个有故事的人，经历的多，什么都想和大家分享。
后来就变得很少写，过一段时间后，写得很多，可是都没什么内容。
不知从什么时候，
开始有了警惕心，开始无法开怀的表述自己的感情，开始觉得自己的事不需要别人知道。
blog变成发泄的工具，有什么感觉就跑上来噼里啪啦一番，然后就又跟没事人一样，雨过天晴了。
这样的blog,我早就放弃了备份，因为这里的我比现实生活里的我，郁闷太多，
老是抱着这些郁闷不放，也太累了。
这些年过去，我的文笔实在退步太多，除了英中混杂，还多了港台味，
自己看着都别扭，写完就算。
不过归根结底，还是因为我的脑筋变得简单。
生活无趣，自然懒得去想那么多。
什么青春岁月，无知少年，
什么成长的烦恼，校园的迷情，
什么对生活的坚持，对理想的执著，对信仰的激情，
什么什么，全成了粪土。对过去的记忆渐渐模糊。
昨天去烧烤，对着一幅西安名胜的扑克，许多竟然一无所知，就好像我从没去过。
对将来更是采取惯用的模糊逻辑，随遇而安。
对于现在，每分每秒都想要用来做“有用”的事情，而什么有用，什么没用，却完全分不清楚。
现实，就是一切的主题。
为自己的幽默感默哀．．．
昨天吃了停车罚单，１０５刀。我想要咬人。不过现在２１世纪，还是要理智的用和平手段来解决战争，所以我决定上诉。我就不信会因为一张罚单蹲监狱，反正我现在有的是时间。
对了，这两天在研究炉子，俨然希望自己成为一块在４维空间里遨游的比萨饼。天下哪有人这样研究烤箱的？我不是ｎｅｒｄ，谁是ｎｅｒｄ？
大家都安排的好忙。我试着去理解。不过我还是很讨厌不敢承诺，或是出尔反尔的人。也许自己曾经是这样的人，最终引火烧身，所以格外反感。是就是，不是就不是了。哪有那么多可能，那么多反反复复，这样的人都觉得自己太重要，别人的时间都不是时间，别人的损失反正与自己无关。说到底就是自私，爱自己超过任何人。我想不通，这样的人如何活的心安理得。算了，我少见多怪，我自认倒霉，自取其辱，怪不得别人。请继续跟我说不，我还是会继续犯傻。我认定了的事，没有那么容易回头。
June 09
First Time…
Hey, i don't mean whatever it means!
First time going to the gardening centre... leant what's "top soil" and saw all kinds of gardening gardgets.
First time going to Michaels... geez, now I want to do lots of arts and craft work, coz it seems so much fun!
It's a whole new world out there. All I need to do is to open my eyes and arms. Life can be this simple and beautiful. I love my first time planting a little garden in front of my house... altho the flowers are kinda dying now... sob...
June 07
401 Loves Me
A local knows that's not a love statement. took me 1hr + 40min to get to work this morning. 401 is my best friend: he never wants me to leave him... always wants me around and stuck. Oh don't get my wrong, I love him too... it's just, love shouldn't be a jail!
Weather is sticky. And ppl turned on a/c already... I want to say, you crazy! try the weather in xi'an and you'll know it's NOTHING!
Got a place settled in BOS. Nice location, roommate, rent and space. Seems like a good deal! Just need a company if I drive there, or I'll take the bus tour on my own, so that it's much cheaper... simply can't afford air tickets nowadays.
Ah that's enough rambling for today... total annihilation of house dirt today again.
June 05
无无聊聊 – 准吗？不知道
您的成绩：36分
饥渴度。★★★
你是一个对爱情的向往度比平常人高的人。你渴望一份爱情的到来，但是你对爱情的向往渴望程度还没有到歇斯底里的地步。你希望可以在平淡和忙碌的生活中有一个人可以照顾自己，关心自己。无论是物质上的，还是精神上的，一个恋人都会成为你生命中的一个支柱。使你在受伤和无助的时候有个依靠，有个可以解脱的地方，而不至于像现在一样把任何委屈都留给自己一个人，自己一个人承担所有的伤痛和委屈。你渴望的爱情是平凡的，是甜美的，你宁愿朋友说你天真，宁愿朋友说你傻，你总是想等待那样一个完全适合自己的另外一半。无论你对爱情的向往有多大，你都不会乱择人选。
A类型★狠角色
【个性剖析】爱出风头，假装高雅
你是一个相当虚荣的人，一旦有什么突发事件发生，马上就会替自己找退路，从来不顾及别人的感受，从某种意义上来说，就是自私自利。故庸风雅的你经常在大家面前炫耀你所谓的高品味、高素质，其实，这样做很庸俗，也很愚蠢。你非常渴望提高自己的修养和气质，但可能是因为方法不得当或没有高人的指点，所以才导致你的行为风格一直处于很世俗的阶段。
【嗲功培训计划】全面强攻，着重加强谈吐方面的修养
你知道你跟人说话的口气很伤人吗？虽然你的心眼并不坏，但你太在乎两个人一争高下的输赢结果了。你身边的朋友或同学并没有想看你出丑的想法，放心大胆地对别人敞开胸怀是最聪明的决定，不一定非要在气势上压倒对方，有时候处理事情的方式柔和一点，反而能凸现出你善良的本性。在今后的日子里，不妨多看看谈话技巧方面的书籍，如果嫌太枯燥的话，看看有关爱情的韩剧，学学女主角是怎样用那种嗲得出水来的声音跟男生讲话的也很不错哟！
June 03
珍惜
天气好，心情也好起来。看到游船的照片，一下子就开朗起来。朋友是用来珍惜的，就算不是所有的人都明白，我也要尽力去享受我们确确实实在一起的每分每秒。能够被邀请去参加活动，是我的荣幸，能去的我一定参加。去不了的，我道歉，我遗憾，我感谢朋友的盛情，我希望下次有机会。生命多美好，没有时间自怨自艾。
May 29
麻痹
发现自己在整袋整袋的扔两个星期前买的grocery。虽然发誓暑假里要好好学做饭，可是还是习惯让自己被忙碌麻痹。生活是什么？早晨7点睁眼开始，上一次班，塞两次车，吃3次饭，上4个小时网，睡5个小时觉。生活是没有感情的动物。生活不需要朋友。生活自然不需要美食这样的点缀。这样的生活，根本就不是生活。我要变，我洗车，我养猫养花，我做饭，我把大块的时间用来出游。然后我发现，自己被另一种忙碌麻痹。习惯和车，和花花草草猫猫狗狗，和大队的朋友在一起，以为这样就是充实。其实，哪一个不是虚弱的繁荣，哪一样不是冷血的东西？一个人的迷失，至少可以对镜独酌，可以月下轻吟，可以“万径人踪灭，独钓寒江雪”；在别人狂欢中的迷失，才是迷失的最高境界，彻底的孤独。
每个人都有自己的一套对事物排列先后的方法。我很重要，我很忙，我觉得这个对我重要，所以我要先做；那个粪土都不如，死活都与我无关，所以，还是让我把其他所有的事情都忙完，再来看看它还活着不？在夹缝里长的草，虽然顽强，怎么可能健康？在密密麻麻的时间表中，硬挤出来的时间，可以玩的开心么？人都是有感情的动物。可是，当这个动物以工作为乐，不懂得如何放松自己，真的以为自己是百兽之王，不懂得钱，时间，面子，和感情，舍我其谁的时候，那我觉得，是时候让它沉到事情轻重缓急的名单上的最底层。永远被别人说：“我没时间跟你说，我等一下在打给你，我看看如果可能到时候才知道有时间的话，我在跟你说。” 这样的感觉像吸毒，越吸越麻痹。突然想到darth vadar是怎样诞生的，还有，郑渊洁的名言：如果有人对你说他没时间，那说明你对他不重要。
May 26
Camping pics uploaded
http://www.ecf.utoronto.ca/~zhan/camping
May 18
I’ve no feeling
i don't feel anything, other than i'm busy, i'm tired, i'm paralyzed from all my feelings...
i like this feeling of having no feelings...
let it be cold, let the traffic jam, let work be repetitive, let the cat bite, let the weed grow, let the tree die, let there only be phone messages...
Cruise
cruise完了
幸福的时光永记心间
虽然逼得太急，虽然有时抱怨
可我知道， 回首时，
只会舍不得
说的不对，做的太少，挑剔太多
请原谅我的执著
已经开始想念
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May 03
First and Last
So, it's the first day of work, and the last day of skule.
What a combination!
Said Bye to Min last night. Graduation is horrible, why do we have to graduate? Xi'an was the heart-broken city, now it's Toronto's turn. Note, it's "heart-broken", not "breaking"... The city itself is crying for me. I thought i don't care, i thought i won't give it a damn... i thought i've grown up and getting together or separation is just a joke, i thought i've my own life and nothing can alter my pace... i'm wrong! I don't want to see ppl leave, don't want to part, don't want to go anywhere else but staying here, and I want everyone else to be here with me.
The weather sux. dont' know if the planes took off smoothly?
Work was fun. Lots of trainings and information in one day. But everyone was happy, nice, and extremely serious about what they are working on. I like that attitude, and enjoy the respect everyone is giving everyone. The other students seem nice too, taking notes and everything. So yeh, no one mess over here. Oh, for the first time in my life, I got my own cubicle and computer... I think this is cool enough for me to be happy for a while. Oh, and i get to read papers and number my notebook... hehe, just like in a lab. Hmmmm, when do i get my hands on the stuff in the cool lab?
LIN was bad. Oh well. It's over. I didn't study hard at all, so i don't expect too much. Pretty sure I passed tho, and that's good enough. Now it's all over, officially. Now what? The emptiness is getting into my bone marrow.
Mermi isn't very happy with me. We get along, but in two parallel lines. I'm upstairs, she's downstairs. I stink my way, and she does it her way. I don't see her, she doesn't see me... oh well, the food is gone and the poo poo is at the right place. good enough...
May 01
What’s cooking…
Now playing…
曲名：寂寞在唱歌 歌手：阿桑 专辑：寂寞在唱歌
寂寞在唱歌
天黑了 孤独又慢慢割着
有人的心 又开始疼了
爱很远了 很久没再见了
就这样 竟然也能活着
你听寂寞在唱歌 轻轻的 狠狠的
歌声是这么残忍 让人忍不住泪流成河
谁说的 人非要快乐不可 好象快乐由得人选择
找不到的那个人 来不来呢
我会是谁的 谁是我的
**你听寂寞在唱歌 轻轻的 狠狠的
歌声是这么残忍 让人忍不住泪流成河
你听寂寞在唱歌 温柔的 疯狂的
悲伤越来越深刻 怎样才能够让它停呢 **
你听寂寞在唱歌 轻轻的 狠狠的
歌声是这么残忍 让人忍不住泪流成河
你听寂寞在唱歌 温柔的 疯狂的
悲伤越来越深刻 谁能帮个忙够让它停呢
天黑得 像不会再天亮了
明不明天 也无所谓了
就静静的 看青春难依难舍
泪还是热的 泪痕冷了
April 30
A fun link for all your BME’s out there
http://www.pcpages.com/kevintan/
New Understanding of life today
- my thesis was crap: two minutes of glancing at it, i found 2 BIG errors, in the procedure part, on HOW MUCH each stuff should be added. one place, i forgot an 1 in the front, the other places, i added an extra 0. so, 1600 became 600, and 50 became 500. it IS truly crap!
-BMO sux
-lab ppl had farewell lunch to the undergrads, without me! ><~~~~~
-forgot the tshirt lab bought me in the lab... got to remember to get it on Monday, i LOVE it yet forgot about it. that sux. how often does that happen? that doesn't mean much does it? i thought i put it in my bag!
-too much misc things to attend to. did everything except studying for LIN. how hard working of me.
April 28
The decision has been made
so, BU it is.
The trip was amazing. Other than the fact that I didn't get to go to meet Qian in New Haven, it was very impressive. Boston is... pretty and cozy, much more so than Toronto. I went at the right season, and it's blossoming EVERYWHERE. BU was half the size of Toronto, but with a clearer division of its campus into different colleges, so it was easily navigatable. The subway called the "T" has its green "B" line going through the campus, making it even more accessible from anywhere in the city. This was similar to UT, but somehow UT was too huge for me, that everyone seems so remote from each other~ BU's ppl are happy. The profs had very different attitudes. Some were so cool that they almost appeared anti-social, some were questioning me as if in an interview, while others were trying hard to show me there cool gudgets under development. I had lunch with two BU students. Well, if the students were enjoying their life there, and were willing to recommend to up-comers, then I guess it can't be too wrong a decision. On contrast, I can't imagine myself recommending eng sci to youngsters any more, at least without complaining about it. I so see the girls that I enticed into eng sci suffering as much as me, and i really feel guilty about it. Well, I guess that their opinion would always be reference only, coz i remember the horror story from JN, who had Jenny He as her mentor - what an eng sci legend to follow!
I went on the Duck Tour the first thing, with Gerald and his Finn. I swear you can't get anything close to this anywhere else. It's a city tour in the amphibiant vehicle that runs both on the road and in the water. Starting from downtown, the tour went through the most famous boston common and state house, until hitting the charles river for viewing both sides of boston in one glance. Downtown boston isn't a forest of high-rises. In fact, it was quite hard to tell that was downtown already. Buildings were moderate in size, but mostly with long long history. Oh, it was funny how I couldn't follow the freedom trail properly. I constantly went in a loop in fron the state house, only to find that the freedom trail disappearing in front of me in both directions. I decided to go into the state house then, but got questioned by the security about the "wired electric device" in my handbag, and got lost inside the huge house after I finally went in (went in a loop again and again~~) Sigh, I guess it's a signal, one that says, "next time, you'll have lots more time to visit all these places all you want!"
Harvard was cool. All the buildings had this touch of red to them. I didn't really go into the campus, because it was raining and i didn't have an umbrella. But I made the right decision to go into the campus coop book store, where i bought the long anticipated Da Vinci Code. It was super cheap there, compared to CAN$38 in canada, it's US$25 in the bookstore, with a 30% discount, it was only US$18, hard cover. I climbed to the 3rd floor, found a seat facing the window, guess what, I could see harvard square in the rain~ it was super romantic~ hehe, maybe this wasn't the right word to use, but it was like a dream came true. Imagine that, I was reading a book in a book store located on harvard campus, overseeing harvard square in the rain... dear, here went the entire afternoon.
I left HY $$~ kinda feel bad not to. But i also know that it would create distance btw friends. I know i know... but it's just, the rightful thing to do i feel. if someone spends time and $$ on helping me, but i've no way of giving back, and i see the next time i will still need his help, i'd rather make it up this time. this way i feel better next time i ask for help~ i don't know... i don't mean to calculate everything... but i just feel, it's only fair if i do... the world is realistic...
April 22
This google map thing
So yeh, it IS super scary! check it out! http://maps.google.ca, and click on "satellite"!
Pros and cons of BU and UT:
BU:
Pros:
-PhD
-full funding with no teaching first year
-rotation
-7th in BME in the country, strong program
-access to all the other schools, hospitals, industry
-new city, new place, new adventure
-Location location location
Cons:
-PhD, it's long
-constantly living in the shadow of MIT and Harvard
-no home or old friends any more
-expensive
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UT:
Pros:
-MASc, short
-much cheaper
-enough $$ to be happy
-nice supervisor, strong program
-big school, can look down upon others
-home home home
Cons:
-MASc, what if i wanna do a PhD?
-not as much $$ as BU on an absolute sense
-have to TA
-lack of job perspective
-well, a lot of friends will be gone anyways
-feeling of being stuck, 2 yrs from now, everything is the same, life is planned
My trip is now packed:
Monday: departure 6:25am, arrival 10:10, city tour 12-2pm, 1st meeting 3pm, 2nd meeting 4pm.
Tuesday: 1st meeting 10am, 2nd meeting ??, rent a car, head over to New Haven via I-95
Wed: continue to tour the city, departure 6:45pm, arrival 10:43.
Wish me good luck!
Well, I guess it's time for me to move on in life. Any comments from you?
BTW, she killed me today. The test was super hard...
April 20
This is for testing bg music!
if you find the music annoying, i'm sorry!
this is just a test for fun!
i like the music by the way, so even you find it annoying, don't tell me! ok i took the music off, now you are happy!?
What’s cooking
My old 4 year old baby http://www.livejournal.com/~pancakej/
I will miss you!
My first BBBEER site http://individual.utoronto.ca/jane
Vicspenguin http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=vicspenguin
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Monkle
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xiao yu
got a new perception about life today. it's all a game! oh i love this theory... what's the point of worrying about things or overthinking all the time. it doesn't matter! it's all just playing, and that's what makes it fun! the weather has cleared up, so let's look forward to the new week!
Published Date: Sun, 16 Oct 2005 17:02:39 GMT
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只有感激
不知道为什么就只能想到这个题目。有没有时候你也会像我一样突然在现在的朋友中发现老朋友的影子？很奇怪的，一起打球的队长，怎么看怎么像monkle... 同屋的室友，怎么聊怎么像RC~ 让我觉得，其实老朋友无处不在。我是幸福的，有什么资格抱怨？能做的，只有感激。
室友说，有些人有commitment problem，抱着现在还想着过去，始终无法投入眼前的生活，这种人是heartless。我说，真希望和这样的人换心，因为我有too much heart，对虚幻的现实，无从规划的将来就可以弥足深陷，有什么用呢？从来就没有什么人有责任为我做什么。任何的点滴，我都记在心里，能做的，只有感激。
Published Date: Sat, 15 Oct 2005 02:36:24 GMT
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when do i get to see the mr. sun again?
alrite, i think i'm having this extreme depression due to separation with mr. sun for too long. i miss u so much! when are you coming out again? it's been so gray and damp and cold... without you, i just wanna hug my mr. bed all day long...
lots of good movies are coming on... emmm, which one should i watch? w&g is reallyyyyyyy cute, elizabeth town seems vely sweeeeeeet, zorro and his girl are sooooooooo hot, plus hp comes in flying! um... or maybe i should worry about my midterms and stuff more? i don't know~ i think i'm through the period of the term when i get everything done on the night it's assigned, never be late or fall asleep in classes, always working on things and never feel tired...
even a burning torch has its time to go out, not to mention a person without sunshine~
news everyday... entertainment first, then horoscope... that is my day...
whatever... it's just funny~
诗歌看透你对困难的态度
分析结果
ABC
与积极正好相反，你是个非常消极的人。不管对任何事物，你都是采取被动的方式，所以不可能事先策划某些事情。因此，别人常对你持有好感，并认为你是一个谦虚的人。可是，在紧要关头，你若不能主动积极，就无法抓住好的时机。不管是多么细小的事物，找一个新的机会，主动去尝试看看吧！
http://astro.sina.com.cn/ot/2005-10-13/180523304.shtml
你是空中的梦想家吗
B、懂得区分梦想和现实
你也是比较爱幻想的人，但你很清楚那些是不可能实现的梦想。你很会把握现实，因此不会一直沉湎于梦想。这一类型的人中，最终抛弃梦想选择现实的人比较多。
你和很多普通人一样，会对明星或偶像有好感。但你不会真的去向对方告白。大多数情况下，你只会和朋友一起叽里呱啦地讨论讨论，从暗处偷看一下罢了。一般来说，这类型的人和追求自己的人交往会比自己主动追求的情况多。
http://astro.sina.com.cn/ot/2005-10-13/171423302.shtml
Published Date: Fri, 14 Oct 2005 04:07:04 GMT
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无聊消遣，没话找话
奇怪，
为什么是我？为什么总是我？
有时会觉得辛苦
有时又觉得满足
已经学会不苛求太多
因为曾经跌得太重
因为人在从前里成长
只是在心中默念
在忙碌中麻痹
数着分分秒秒
让自己平静
就连做功课也成了乐趣
简直闻所未闻
每天扮cool
是否真的不在乎？
如果不在乎
为什么我会迷惑？
我一定又成了
别人旅途中的风景
每天在进行
脚步却从来不会为我而停
从不奢望什么
因为没有什么是理所当然
执迷不悔
还是悬崖勒马
全在一念之间......
Published Date: Sat, 08 Oct 2005 03:22:26 GMT
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3/5, 7/7?
I just got myself into this crazy commitment of volleyball practice/game for 3 days out of 5 per week. I don't know if it's worth it or if I'll lose valuable time to study. I only know that I played bad today and I try to make it up, and I get to play in good teams. It's a decision changed/made in a split of second, as I've always said I hated intramural or any competition. I never perform well under stress. What's the deal? I don't understand. I have this feeling I'm seeing someone way too much there's the loss of freshness in the friendship. But I don't know how to help it. I guess if it's meant to be, we can't really change it too much, no matter how hard we try. Meant to be, I use that to explain everything. Sooner or later, the same thing would happen.
Planning on going hiking. Found this site, and got suggestion from ppl: http://www321.pair.com/oaries/localattitude/wachusett.htm If you are intersted let me know?
messed up and didn't do anything tonite...
Published Date: Tue, 04 Oct 2005 04:31:37 GMT
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超健康
最近变得越来越健康。晚12点到1点睡觉，早7点到8点起床。今天早上愣是8点起床，9点去打羽毛球，打到11点，冲凉，吃午饭，学习到7点回家，自己做饭。简直健康到不行了。生活方式有质的改变，效率也有所提高。感觉不错，应该会继续。感谢我的动力。希望对新城市的新鲜感永远不会过去。
今日名言：
生命之所以有意义，是因为感觉自己被需要......
Published Date: Mon, 03 Oct 2005 02:06:15 GMT
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有没有一种东西
远观比拥有更幸福？喜欢就一定要得到吗？如果得到时候就失去了新鲜感，弃之一边，转而向往更好的，朝三暮四，还不如默默的欣赏，享受近在咫尺却远在天边的乐趣，为自己“总有一天会有的”豪言壮语而骄傲。不是吗？从前喜欢一条精巧的裙子，无奈囊中羞涩，于是发誓要努力赚钱；喜欢一间著名的学校，但成绩不够，于是每天挑灯伏案；喜欢一份万众瞩目的工作，可惜竞争力不强，于是想尽办法让自己的简历再丰满些。喜欢一个人也可以这样吗？有人说“爱情是要自己争取的”，也有人说“爱情是无法勉强的”，到底是怎样的？爱情可以好像一件东西，一间学校，或者一份工作这样去远观而不亵玩吗？只要努力付出就会收获吗？暗恋的感觉，真的强过热恋吗？得到就等于失去那份挑战吗？
Published Date: Thu, 29 Sep 2005 00:43:17 GMT
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红的还是蓝的？
最近被人猛灌red sox爱国主义精神。今天去看corpse bride的时候，正好赶上fenway的狂热劲。电影好看，球迷更好看。路边有黄牛，还有挂着牌子写着"i need tickets"的可怜人。据说门票早在开始出售3天内就卖光了，然后网上卖都在300至500的价位，着实恐怖。相比较蓝鸟在多伦多的冷清，其实当时有red sox game的时候，在skydome看就得了，那需要500块？5块就差不多了吧？随大流，我对这个现在也有了兴趣，明年应该会赶场吧？多伦多前几天赢了yankees，让red sox捡了便宜，结果现在又回来面对劲敌，看来帮人也不见得会有回报。不过他们赢了yankees好像也进不了季后赛了吧~ 不管怎么说，波士顿人民感谢蓝鸟队！呵呵~
其实最早知道red sox是因为看了the girl who loved tom gordon. 发觉这种崇拜真神了，可以让迷路的8，9岁的小孩一个人在缅因的树林风雪里硬是找到回家的路。换作是我，一定找不到北，因为心中没有这样的感情支柱。如果再教育可以让我建立起这种支柱，我愿意天天去泡fenway park，现场或电视我都守着。
Published Date: Wed, 28 Sep 2005 01:26:55 GMT
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严重安慰一下和我一样周五没有party的人
其实自己在家挺好的，安静，好读书。什么书都行。楼下的party12点才开锣，我这边11点睡觉就得了，只要睡着了就不会被吵醒。唉，其实要去rock concert，结果这不是又咳上了，所以还是乖乖呆家里，期待明天！写那个volunteer的application咯。越来越觉得，giving makes me happy... cheesy, but true~
Published Date: Sat, 24 Sep 2005 02:27:45 GMT
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都在心里
最近常常会心神不宁，大小事情不断，所有的事情都要返工重做才会有好结果，有时候挺累的，也不知道自己怎么这么不顺。连车证上的名字都被人打了typo，有没有搞错！！又要再去~ 烦！或者新来乍到都会这样？不过我还是扮到蛮cool，什么都在心里。跟人说有什么用？也没有什么能帮到我，人家也不可能替我做事。可能是我老毛病又犯，有什么想法也爱面子不愿找帮助，人家都忙啊！
不过其实没有那么严重，学校家里还是很快乐，就是政府银行的那点破事成天搞不完。也许是我太心急，什么都想搞定免除后患。其实说起来我的apartment超舒服，室友很好，家具免费捞了全套，学校同学有的口顷，教授都很棒，lab也找到，还碰到一个会让我想起来就开心，就有动力的人，这一切我应该觉得很知足了。现在最重要的，是耐心。慢慢得来，一切都理得顺。对啦，我觉得教nonlinear的教授超cool,讲话有清楚，又不会罗嗦，notes也整齐,高科技也玩得转，笑话政论都一针见血。我想如果今后我有幸做了教授，也要学他这样，寓教于乐。
迷路是乐趣吗？惊讶的发现一个人跟我一样有这样的想法。这是我知道第一个这样想的人。还有，最近的气氛，就是很融洽，读起书来也有劲，因为知道如果有不会的题就可以问人，人家都很不计较的解释给我。这和以前的感觉不太一样，让我对自己也多一点信心。感谢大家。
终于有机会重新碰到排球，感谢老天，我居然找到一个，然后是一队，跟我一样狂热，而且技术又好又不骄傲的朋友。我想今后应该会每周都去打吧？
订票了。终于要回家。下决心的原因，是实在很想念。这次回去有伴，真的很开心。结果就是现在有什么social活动都要考虑三分，因为最好还是学数学读书。回家的几天一定什么都读不进去，所以不要寄期望。最好是回家之前就都搞定。数学吗，都学过了，虽然学的很烂，重新拾一拾应该还做得到。嗯，战略上要藐视敌人，战术上要重视敌人。还有就是那句，时间都是挤出来的。
学校里有免费journalism workshop+free lunch! 实在是，天下真有这么好的事！？这个周6有其他安排去不了，不过是讲news reporting，下周的interviewing应该更有趣吧？看来今后每个星期6都有事做啦~ 新城市给人的感觉，就是这样，总是有事做，永远不会闷。而且因为大家都是学生，离家很远，所以什么事只要说一声就应者云集，去玩，去读书，去吃饭，都有集体行动的可能。当然如果想要单独呆着，机会还是大把。这种距离感，不近不远，似乎刚刚好。
Published Date: Fri, 23 Sep 2005 13:47:34 GMT
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Anyone up for any of these? nah, more like a to-do list
-jazz fes in south bos on sat
-advanced screening jonny depp's "corpse bride" wednesday fenway amc
- bme picnic sat
-jazz/rock bar fri nite
-journalism workshop com 209 sat 11-2
-badminton sunday morning
-home-made sushi nite
-trip to rmv
-honda bb inspection
-567/505 study group
-700 study group: despaaarate for this one =(
-lab tours
- taekwon-do class??
Published Date: Wed, 21 Sep 2005 03:47:41 GMT
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predict the unpredictable
today's horoscope: things get really weird once you know you are not saying what your heart wants to say. try to maintain eye contact, relax and concentrate on the topics when you are talking. follow your intuition, but do expect the worst, because it is often the case. be patient with what is not working out, but make the effort to push it forward. any progress is good, and prepare for the best in the weekend.
Published Date: Thu, 15 Sep 2005 04:51:09 GMT
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没那么爱他 - it's true
你有权利情绪化
你不一定要坚强
但有些事情不能伪装
别为自己设了框
我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
深呼吸抬头望
发现天空很宽广
这世界那么大
幸福总会在某个地方
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
拥有过的计划
留给值得的对象
你知道不会是他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
歌手：范玮琪 专辑：一比一
Published Date: Thu, 25 Aug 2005 03:20:05 GMT
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Peter Jennings...
Really,
haven't ever felt this way about journalism before,
haven't ever realized how superficial it is to take all news reports for granted,
Until abc's program tonite...
Didn't really know that much about Peter Jennings before, even when I heard from 680, I was like, oh, ok, another guy died... I guess that's why he's not Brad Pitt. Watching news, I don't watch the reporter, but that's just the point. A good reporter always directs the audience to immerse in the news at making, and to focus on the implication of any event, instead of showing off their own opinion or emotion. During crisis, during war, 911, challenger, okolahoma city, in cambodia, in iraq, in bosnia, in jesusalem, well, I think it's easier to list them, than to actually be there, in the front line, meeting the people and talking about their stories, with true passion.
It is true that news cast can be biased. It is also true that we always tend to say good things about someone after he's died. But I truly believe that someone who faces the public with such professionalism, such enthuthiasm, such respect, and such charisma and wittiness, doesn't just close his eyes, imagine it all happening and then make it all up. I fully believe that Peter Jennings is just one of all the extraordinary reporters out there, who don't take producing news as their job, but as their life. It shows an attitude towards life, I always think. Being a good journalist takes a sensitive and strong mind, takes passion, curiosity, intuition, sensibility, and understanding. Being a pipe, conducting flow of information to the public is one thing; being a sponge, constantly absorbing knowledge and discovering new perspective of things is another. That's what I like about this profession. When a journalist reports on little details about life that are being ignored by the public, he observes the world through a microscope. He must understand that things don't happen without a reason. If we don't analyze life with real objectiveness, the cause will never be uncovered, being complicated or simple. When a journalist has collected all the background information, and is standing in front of the camera, reporting to the whole world from the centre of an event, the audience is the world, and the earth would hold his breath to hear what he has to say. At such moments, he must have the world in his chest, he must truly care, and he is the king without the crown.
Mourn for Peter Jennings... Reborn my passion about journalism. Too bad I can never write or talk like a local...
Published Date: Thu, 11 Aug 2005 03:31:58 GMT
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If you don't believe in God...
You will after you see this...
Published Date: Wed, 03 Aug 2005 01:07:43 GMT
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ok, so what the 'ell is wrong with British police?
what's the whole deal about shooting 8 times at an innocent civilian? what's the deal about "shooting to kill"?? now they are just like 惊弓之鸟，civilians are like that, why the 'ell are the police freaking out as well? so who's not freaking out? who's "to serve and to protect"? think about us who don't have weapons at home, going out with a school bag, we get shot; going out without a school bag, we get bombed. so when do we NOT get shot or bombed? who should we fear more, the police, the government, or the terrorists??
be scared, and the end of the world is drawing close...
Published Date: Tue, 26 Jul 2005 00:42:55 GMT
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i think it's all meant to be!
guess what, my 4th roommate is going for journalism! it's all meant to be, 1 entrepreneur, 1 journalist, and 1 classmate! i can learn how to start a business, go for journalism classes, and study together with classmate! haha, this is just perfect. i'm so excited now, and looking forward to my new life! too bad the journalist isn't a guy~ hoho, can't stop thinking about them in my shower... wamahahhaha...
Published Date: Tue, 12 Jul 2005 03:13:58 GMT
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上瘾的等待
从来都在等待，等待天亮，等待交通通畅，上学等待放学，上班等待下班，毕业等待好工作，好学校，回家等待好看的电视剧，上网等待沉默，然后就是等待明天。如果可卡因 之后的想入非非算作上瘾，那等待也能让人上瘾吧？
从来都很享受等待的感觉。从前被人称作“思想派”，那是因为什么都喜欢写在日记里，而不愿去付诸行动。痴迷于某个明星的时候，每天痴迷在电视前，等着她的出现。那时候的感觉，就好像喜欢一个糖人，喜欢第一个之后，就觉得自己再也不会喜欢第二个。没有追星的疯狂，没有什么演唱会，见面会，签名会，就这样远远的欣赏，静静的等待。就连写给她的信，都永远的压在日记里，舍不得真的寄出，生怕走的太近，会破坏了距离产生的美。十年了，一切都变了，人会老，就算有什么新戏，也只是网上一天几句话的新闻。可是，仍是等待，珍藏着这份等待，初衷不改。
常常会挂在嘴上的一句话，“现在没有，想来总会有的”。想象有一天，能和家人一起，安安稳稳，种花煮菜，哪怕像老爸向往的，买一块地，自己种自己收，自给自足。现在看来，“既然选择了远行，就选择了风雨兼程”。哈哈，等待不再漂的那一天，很上瘾。
知道等待没有结果，还是没有办法勇敢面对。是因为想要的仍不够多吧？还是害怕追得太急，反而没了最初仅有的憧憬？试过等待电话，等待msn上闪动的人头，最终换来的，是潇潇洒洒的握手，再见。头也不回的奔向车里，开在highway上，听cd咿咿呀呀的唱着...... 没有所谓模糊的街灯，恍惚的神志，只有胃里莫名的绞痛，和嘴角无奈的苦笑，在提醒着我，等待还要继续。后来，听说一种感情叫暗恋，那是一种没有风险，没有困扰的等待。等待时间慢慢冲淡一切，还是等待一件叫做表白的事情，不知道。只晓得，等待中可以随意用幻想填补点点滴滴。其实等待才是最公平，最安全，最美的。
追起来太累，不如等。至少有希望，至少有想象。对于一个“思想派”来说，这就够了。
不眠
7点10分清晨时分
慵懒的气氛
睡不着醒不了
我又失了魂
我苦坐着望着日轮
却以为是黄昏
鸟鸣莺声让我回神
才发现已经过了一生
浮浮沉沉假假真真
为谁辛苦为谁认真
为何努力为何牺牲
拼了再拼忍了又忍
还是欲望这种本能
会让人忘了有多心疼
只是不知无论如何
到了最后还不是一个人
到了最后才发现不是一个人
歌手:范玮琪 专辑:一比一
Published Date: Sun, 10 Jul 2005 04:54:03 GMT
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bomb the ell out of yourself first!
i don't care what the 'ell is going on in those terrorists' mind,
if you have to bomb someone,
bomb yourselves first,
then the presidents and PM's,
if you are still alive,
bomb the civilians and innocent ppl,
and your mom and god!
!@@#$%%&E$^*$&*(%&)(^*_)&({+_()_+*+)(&_
Published Date: Fri, 08 Jul 2005 02:03:54 GMT
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你最适合居住在哪个国家？
你最适合居住在哪个国家？
分析结果
F. 非洲。你热爱的是一种自由不受约束且粗犷的生活方式。你不愿意生活在世俗中，有时候你甚至希望自己可以生活在原始社会，至少那种生活没有压力。其实非洲很适合你这种生活方式，因为那里有你喜欢的给人粗犷感觉的沙漠，那里有别人叫不出名字的植物与动物。如果可以让你控制自己的生活，你宁愿找一个人陪你在那里度过一生。
June 26
What’s cooking
萝卜汤
猪肉，萝卜（青菜，土豆），生姜，花椒，盐，葱
洗肉，一块肉切两半，烧水，水开放肉至烧开，去沫，放姜，花椒。水再开时放入萝卜（或土豆，青菜稍晚）。肉熟出锅，菜熟放盐，葱入汤，起锅。
回锅肉
（做汤煮熟的）熟肉放凉切片，姜丝，蒜片，郫县豆瓣，蒜苗或葱，青红辣椒切块，花椒面，糖盐
冷油入肉，姜丝，放盐，翻炒至油热，将肉拨开，放入葱（白的部分），蒜片，豆瓣酱，炒至油滚，放入辣椒，炒熟后加糖，花椒面，最后加葱或蒜苗出锅。
土豆西红柿
土豆切长条，西红柿切块，葱，盐
土豆入油，炒热加盐，放西红柿，加水盖锅5分钟，入葱出锅
蒸茄子
茄子，蒜沫，姜沫，酱油，麻油
茄子切两半，蒸10分钟出锅。用蒜沫姜沫和适量酱油麻油拌汁，浇在茄子上即成。
June 23
Moving Sale is ON!
ALL ITEMS LIKE NEW AND MUST GO!
come back daily for additional items!
see pictures in Album...
DON'T MISS OUT ON THE H~O~T AND SWEET DEALS
CONTACT ME janeyqz@hotmail.com OR LEAVE MSG!
June 21
关于最近的电影
我就觉得mr. and mrs. smith很好看。可能应为以前看过tomb raider 和fight club印象都很深，很喜欢，现在看着两个人就是想要一直看一直看。报上的影评说，就是看着pitt 和jolie两个人坐在那里读电话簿，都会卖出好票房，呵呵，我觉得一点不错。其实什么情节都不重要，去看这个电影，就不会在乎那么多，不要太苛刻吧！为了满足感官冲击，这部戏绝对做到了。那如果说要讲什么人生道理，仔细想想还真是有点潜移默化，哈哈。give it 4 stars out of 5... hehe
还看了madagascar，呵呵~超可爱！最喜欢里面的那个大眼睛的小獾熊~叫什么来着？不记得了，反正就是喜欢。有这样一个玩具的话，一定会整天抱着~
June 19
天下无不散的宴席
终于毕业了。
心里的悲喜交加，全变成满脸堆笑。
只见一行人一字排开，熟练的对着对面同样数量的照相机。
快门排山倒海般不停的闪着，
这阵势，就和记者招待会差不多。
心，却被每下快门一点点挖空。
早就知道会有这么一天，
真正到了的时候，却还是不敢相信。
有些人可能很久，很久很久都不会再见了吧？
脑子里突然空落落的，几天之后才缓过劲来。
事实摆在眼前，就要学会接受，
明天，应该更值得期待吧？
散了，真的散了......
June 13
逛了一圈别人的blog
觉得大家的文笔都好好，又深奥又富有感情，
芝加哥人的幽默而唯美，Ｈ的有提到我哦，
sheevonne的透着一丝无奈，从前没有发现赤子的观察力如此入微～
比起这个被我随时随地东拉西扯上一笔的地方强多了。
看到自己的blog list越来越长，我觉得我还是有很多朋友，又发现自己还是比较怀旧的。
想起自己当初的blog，每天也写的很认真，很有感情，好像学校里的命题作文一样，字斟句酌。
因为那时，觉得自己是个有故事的人，经历的多，什么都想和大家分享。
后来就变得很少写，过一段时间后，写得很多，可是都没什么内容。
不知从什么时候，
开始有了警惕心，开始无法开怀的表述自己的感情，开始觉得自己的事不需要别人知道。
blog变成发泄的工具，有什么感觉就跑上来噼里啪啦一番，然后就又跟没事人一样，雨过天晴了。
这样的blog,我早就放弃了备份，因为这里的我比现实生活里的我，郁闷太多，
老是抱着这些郁闷不放，也太累了。
这些年过去，我的文笔实在退步太多，除了英中混杂，还多了港台味，
自己看着都别扭，写完就算。
不过归根结底，还是因为我的脑筋变得简单。
生活无趣，自然懒得去想那么多。
什么青春岁月，无知少年，
什么成长的烦恼，校园的迷情，
什么对生活的坚持，对理想的执著，对信仰的激情，
什么什么，全成了粪土。对过去的记忆渐渐模糊。
昨天去烧烤，对着一幅西安名胜的扑克，许多竟然一无所知，就好像我从没去过。
对将来更是采取惯用的模糊逻辑，随遇而安。
对于现在，每分每秒都想要用来做“有用”的事情，而什么有用，什么没用，却完全分不清楚。
现实，就是一切的主题。
为自己的幽默感默哀．．．
昨天吃了停车罚单，１０５刀。我想要咬人。不过现在２１世纪，还是要理智的用和平手段来解决战争，所以我决定上诉。我就不信会因为一张罚单蹲监狱，反正我现在有的是时间。
对了，这两天在研究炉子，俨然希望自己成为一块在４维空间里遨游的比萨饼。天下哪有人这样研究烤箱的？我不是ｎｅｒｄ，谁是ｎｅｒｄ？
大家都安排的好忙。我试着去理解。不过我还是很讨厌不敢承诺，或是出尔反尔的人。也许自己曾经是这样的人，最终引火烧身，所以格外反感。是就是，不是就不是了。哪有那么多可能，那么多反反复复，这样的人都觉得自己太重要，别人的时间都不是时间，别人的损失反正与自己无关。说到底就是自私，爱自己超过任何人。我想不通，这样的人如何活的心安理得。算了，我少见多怪，我自认倒霉，自取其辱，怪不得别人。请继续跟我说不，我还是会继续犯傻。我认定了的事，没有那么容易回头。
June 09
First Time…
Hey, i don't mean whatever it means!
First time going to the gardening centre... leant what's "top soil" and saw all kinds of gardening gardgets.
First time going to Michaels... geez, now I want to do lots of arts and craft work, coz it seems so much fun!
It's a whole new world out there. All I need to do is to open my eyes and arms. Life can be this simple and beautiful. I love my first time planting a little garden in front of my house... altho the flowers are kinda dying now... sob...
June 07
401 Loves Me
A local knows that's not a love statement. took me 1hr + 40min to get to work this morning. 401 is my best friend: he never wants me to leave him... always wants me around and stuck. Oh don't get my wrong, I love him too... it's just, love shouldn't be a jail!
Weather is sticky. And ppl turned on a/c already... I want to say, you crazy! try the weather in xi'an and you'll know it's NOTHING!
Got a place settled in BOS. Nice location, roommate, rent and space. Seems like a good deal! Just need a company if I drive there, or I'll take the bus tour on my own, so that it's much cheaper... simply can't afford air tickets nowadays.
Ah that's enough rambling for today... total annihilation of house dirt today again.
June 05
无无聊聊 – 准吗？不知道
您的成绩：36分
饥渴度。★★★
你是一个对爱情的向往度比平常人高的人。你渴望一份爱情的到来，但是你对爱情的向往渴望程度还没有到歇斯底里的地步。你希望可以在平淡和忙碌的生活中有一个人可以照顾自己，关心自己。无论是物质上的，还是精神上的，一个恋人都会成为你生命中的一个支柱。使你在受伤和无助的时候有个依靠，有个可以解脱的地方，而不至于像现在一样把任何委屈都留给自己一个人，自己一个人承担所有的伤痛和委屈。你渴望的爱情是平凡的，是甜美的，你宁愿朋友说你天真，宁愿朋友说你傻，你总是想等待那样一个完全适合自己的另外一半。无论你对爱情的向往有多大，你都不会乱择人选。
A类型★狠角色
【个性剖析】爱出风头，假装高雅
你是一个相当虚荣的人，一旦有什么突发事件发生，马上就会替自己找退路，从来不顾及别人的感受，从某种意义上来说，就是自私自利。故庸风雅的你经常在大家面前炫耀你所谓的高品味、高素质，其实，这样做很庸俗，也很愚蠢。你非常渴望提高自己的修养和气质，但可能是因为方法不得当或没有高人的指点，所以才导致你的行为风格一直处于很世俗的阶段。
【嗲功培训计划】全面强攻，着重加强谈吐方面的修养
你知道你跟人说话的口气很伤人吗？虽然你的心眼并不坏，但你太在乎两个人一争高下的输赢结果了。你身边的朋友或同学并没有想看你出丑的想法，放心大胆地对别人敞开胸怀是最聪明的决定，不一定非要在气势上压倒对方，有时候处理事情的方式柔和一点，反而能凸现出你善良的本性。在今后的日子里，不妨多看看谈话技巧方面的书籍，如果嫌太枯燥的话，看看有关爱情的韩剧，学学女主角是怎样用那种嗲得出水来的声音跟男生讲话的也很不错哟！
June 03
珍惜
天气好，心情也好起来。看到游船的照片，一下子就开朗起来。朋友是用来珍惜的，就算不是所有的人都明白，我也要尽力去享受我们确确实实在一起的每分每秒。能够被邀请去参加活动，是我的荣幸，能去的我一定参加。去不了的，我道歉，我遗憾，我感谢朋友的盛情，我希望下次有机会。生命多美好，没有时间自怨自艾。
May 29
麻痹
发现自己在整袋整袋的扔两个星期前买的grocery。虽然发誓暑假里要好好学做饭，可是还是习惯让自己被忙碌麻痹。生活是什么？早晨7点睁眼开始，上一次班，塞两次车，吃3次饭，上4个小时网，睡5个小时觉。生活是没有感情的动物。生活不需要朋友。生活自然不需要美食这样的点缀。这样的生活，根本就不是生活。我要变，我洗车，我养猫养花，我做饭，我把大块的时间用来出游。然后我发现，自己被另一种忙碌麻痹。习惯和车，和花花草草猫猫狗狗，和大队的朋友在一起，以为这样就是充实。其实，哪一个不是虚弱的繁荣，哪一样不是冷血的东西？一个人的迷失，至少可以对镜独酌，可以月下轻吟，可以“万径人踪灭，独钓寒江雪”；在别人狂欢中的迷失，才是迷失的最高境界，彻底的孤独。
每个人都有自己的一套对事物排列先后的方法。我很重要，我很忙，我觉得这个对我重要，所以我要先做；那个粪土都不如，死活都与我无关，所以，还是让我把其他所有的事情都忙完，再来看看它还活着不？在夹缝里长的草，虽然顽强，怎么可能健康？在密密麻麻的时间表中，硬挤出来的时间，可以玩的开心么？人都是有感情的动物。可是，当这个动物以工作为乐，不懂得如何放松自己，真的以为自己是百兽之王，不懂得钱，时间，面子，和感情，舍我其谁的时候，那我觉得，是时候让它沉到事情轻重缓急的名单上的最底层。永远被别人说：“我没时间跟你说，我等一下在打给你，我看看如果可能到时候才知道有时间的话，我在跟你说。” 这样的感觉像吸毒，越吸越麻痹。突然想到darth vadar是怎样诞生的，还有，郑渊洁的名言：如果有人对你说他没时间，那说明你对他不重要。
May 26
Camping pics uploaded
http://www.ecf.utoronto.ca/~zhan/camping
May 18
I’ve no feeling
i don't feel anything, other than i'm busy, i'm tired, i'm paralyzed from all my feelings...
i like this feeling of having no feelings...
let it be cold, let the traffic jam, let work be repetitive, let the cat bite, let the weed grow, let the tree die, let there only be phone messages...
Cruise
cruise完了
幸福的时光永记心间
虽然逼得太急，虽然有时抱怨
可我知道， 回首时，
只会舍不得
说的不对，做的太少，挑剔太多
请原谅我的执著
已经开始想念
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May 03
First and Last
So, it's the first day of work, and the last day of skule.
What a combination!
Said Bye to Min last night. Graduation is horrible, why do we have to graduate? Xi'an was the heart-broken city, now it's Toronto's turn. Note, it's "heart-broken", not "breaking"... The city itself is crying for me. I thought i don't care, i thought i won't give it a damn... i thought i've grown up and getting together or separation is just a joke, i thought i've my own life and nothing can alter my pace... i'm wrong! I don't want to see ppl leave, don't want to part, don't want to go anywhere else but staying here, and I want everyone else to be here with me.
The weather sux. dont' know if the planes took off smoothly?
Work was fun. Lots of trainings and information in one day. But everyone was happy, nice, and extremely serious about what they are working on. I like that attitude, and enjoy the respect everyone is giving everyone. The other students seem nice too, taking notes and everything. So yeh, no one mess over here. Oh, for the first time in my life, I got my own cubicle and computer... I think this is cool enough for me to be happy for a while. Oh, and i get to read papers and number my notebook... hehe, just like in a lab. Hmmmm, when do i get my hands on the stuff in the cool lab?
LIN was bad. Oh well. It's over. I didn't study hard at all, so i don't expect too much. Pretty sure I passed tho, and that's good enough. Now it's all over, officially. Now what? The emptiness is getting into my bone marrow.
Mermi isn't very happy with me. We get along, but in two parallel lines. I'm upstairs, she's downstairs. I stink my way, and she does it her way. I don't see her, she doesn't see me... oh well, the food is gone and the poo poo is at the right place. good enough...
May 01
What’s cooking…
Now playing…
曲名：寂寞在唱歌 歌手：阿桑 专辑：寂寞在唱歌
寂寞在唱歌
天黑了 孤独又慢慢割着
有人的心 又开始疼了
爱很远了 很久没再见了
就这样 竟然也能活着
你听寂寞在唱歌 轻轻的 狠狠的
歌声是这么残忍 让人忍不住泪流成河
谁说的 人非要快乐不可 好象快乐由得人选择
找不到的那个人 来不来呢
我会是谁的 谁是我的
**你听寂寞在唱歌 轻轻的 狠狠的
歌声是这么残忍 让人忍不住泪流成河
你听寂寞在唱歌 温柔的 疯狂的
悲伤越来越深刻 怎样才能够让它停呢 **
你听寂寞在唱歌 轻轻的 狠狠的
歌声是这么残忍 让人忍不住泪流成河
你听寂寞在唱歌 温柔的 疯狂的
悲伤越来越深刻 谁能帮个忙够让它停呢
天黑得 像不会再天亮了
明不明天 也无所谓了
就静静的 看青春难依难舍
泪还是热的 泪痕冷了
April 30
A fun link for all your BME’s out there
http://www.pcpages.com/kevintan/
New Understanding of life today
- my thesis was crap: two minutes of glancing at it, i found 2 BIG errors, in the procedure part, on HOW MUCH each stuff should be added. one place, i forgot an 1 in the front, the other places, i added an extra 0. so, 1600 became 600, and 50 became 500. it IS truly crap!
-BMO sux
-lab ppl had farewell lunch to the undergrads, without me! ><~~~~~
-forgot the tshirt lab bought me in the lab... got to remember to get it on Monday, i LOVE it yet forgot about it. that sux. how often does that happen? that doesn't mean much does it? i thought i put it in my bag!
-too much misc things to attend to. did everything except studying for LIN. how hard working of me.
April 28
The decision has been made
so, BU it is.
The trip was amazing. Other than the fact that I didn't get to go to meet Qian in New Haven, it was very impressive. Boston is... pretty and cozy, much more so than Toronto. I went at the right season, and it's blossoming EVERYWHERE. BU was half the size of Toronto, but with a clearer division of its campus into different colleges, so it was easily navigatable. The subway called the "T" has its green "B" line going through the campus, making it even more accessible from anywhere in the city. This was similar to UT, but somehow UT was too huge for me, that everyone seems so remote from each other~ BU's ppl are happy. The profs had very different attitudes. Some were so cool that they almost appeared anti-social, some were questioning me as if in an interview, while others were trying hard to show me there cool gudgets under development. I had lunch with two BU students. Well, if the students were enjoying their life there, and were willing to recommend to up-comers, then I guess it can't be too wrong a decision. On contrast, I can't imagine myself recommending eng sci to youngsters any more, at least without complaining about it. I so see the girls that I enticed into eng sci suffering as much as me, and i really feel guilty about it. Well, I guess that their opinion would always be reference only, coz i remember the horror story from JN, who had Jenny He as her mentor - what an eng sci legend to follow!
I went on the Duck Tour the first thing, with Gerald and his Finn. I swear you can't get anything close to this anywhere else. It's a city tour in the amphibiant vehicle that runs both on the road and in the water. Starting from downtown, the tour went through the most famous boston common and state house, until hitting the charles river for viewing both sides of boston in one glance. Downtown boston isn't a forest of high-rises. In fact, it was quite hard to tell that was downtown already. Buildings were moderate in size, but mostly with long long history. Oh, it was funny how I couldn't follow the freedom trail properly. I constantly went in a loop in fron the state house, only to find that the freedom trail disappearing in front of me in both directions. I decided to go into the state house then, but got questioned by the security about the "wired electric device" in my handbag, and got lost inside the huge house after I finally went in (went in a loop again and again~~) Sigh, I guess it's a signal, one that says, "next time, you'll have lots more time to visit all these places all you want!"
Harvard was cool. All the buildings had this touch of red to them. I didn't really go into the campus, because it was raining and i didn't have an umbrella. But I made the right decision to go into the campus coop book store, where i bought the long anticipated Da Vinci Code. It was super cheap there, compared to CAN$38 in canada, it's US$25 in the bookstore, with a 30% discount, it was only US$18, hard cover. I climbed to the 3rd floor, found a seat facing the window, guess what, I could see harvard square in the rain~ it was super romantic~ hehe, maybe this wasn't the right word to use, but it was like a dream came true. Imagine that, I was reading a book in a book store located on harvard campus, overseeing harvard square in the rain... dear, here went the entire afternoon.
I left HY $$~ kinda feel bad not to. But i also know that it would create distance btw friends. I know i know... but it's just, the rightful thing to do i feel. if someone spends time and $$ on helping me, but i've no way of giving back, and i see the next time i will still need his help, i'd rather make it up this time. this way i feel better next time i ask for help~ i don't know... i don't mean to calculate everything... but i just feel, it's only fair if i do... the world is realistic...
April 22
This google map thing
So yeh, it IS super scary! check it out! http://maps.google.ca, and click on "satellite"!
Pros and cons of BU and UT:
BU:
Pros:
-PhD
-full funding with no teaching first year
-rotation
-7th in BME in the country, strong program
-access to all the other schools, hospitals, industry
-new city, new place, new adventure
-Location location location
Cons:
-PhD, it's long
-constantly living in the shadow of MIT and Harvard
-no home or old friends any more
-expensive
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UT:
Pros:
-MASc, short
-much cheaper
-enough $$ to be happy
-nice supervisor, strong program
-big school, can look down upon others
-home home home
Cons:
-MASc, what if i wanna do a PhD?
-not as much $$ as BU on an absolute sense
-have to TA
-lack of job perspective
-well, a lot of friends will be gone anyways
-feeling of being stuck, 2 yrs from now, everything is the same, life is planned
My trip is now packed:
Monday: departure 6:25am, arrival 10:10, city tour 12-2pm, 1st meeting 3pm, 2nd meeting 4pm.
Tuesday: 1st meeting 10am, 2nd meeting ??, rent a car, head over to New Haven via I-95
Wed: continue to tour the city, departure 6:45pm, arrival 10:43.
Wish me good luck!
Well, I guess it's time for me to move on in life. Any comments from you?
BTW, she killed me today. The test was super hard...
April 20
This is for testing bg music!
if you find the music annoying, i'm sorry!
this is just a test for fun!
i like the music by the way, so even you find it annoying, don't tell me! ok i took the music off, now you are happy!?
What’s cooking
My old 4 year old baby http://www.livejournal.com/~pancakej/
I will miss you!
My first BBBEER site http://individual.utoronto.ca/jane
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Monkle
Park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor http://spaces.msn.com/members/will0t5/PersonalSpace.aspx?owner=1&js=yes
Will
Big Words! http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=antwkf
Anthony
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Bin
肉多多 http://spaces.msn.com/members/fanswh81/PersonalSpace.aspx?owner=1
H
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想晴天的芝加哥人
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Sheevonne
美丽的小鱼 http://www.blogcn.com/user19/kikiboo/index.html
xiao yu
Thursday, November 16, 2006
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